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It’s been a while since my last post to the blog… instead of that poem i wrote yesterday.

I’ve been a survivor (and will always be!) in this pathetic cynical world and i love my role! *lol*

Anyway… WHAT’S UP, VLA? Nothing much, just trying to be friends with life! My body… is healthy as it always been. Lack of sleep, stomach-ache, head-ache, they’re related… like they’re from the same f*ckin family or sumthin. I got these things swirling around on my head for over a week. What thing? How to pay my bills? what to cook for tomorrow? will i get my debts off before next year? Am i going to get through with those deadlines? Why is this damn dvd was such a pain in the ass? When will i get myself a new cellphone (it’s Samsung SGH X460 and i’m using a rubber band to get the battery stick to the body!)? Am i pregnant?
HUH?! Pregnant? The last question gets me, myself, on a “HUH?!” for about 2 weeks now… But dont ask that silly “Who’s the father?” question! The answer is definitly MY HUSBAND, for a hell yeah sure!

And dont ask me “Don’t cha like it? Having one more baby?”. It’s not that i don’t like being a mom, but having a baby… i have to think about my financial condition! Uhm… let’s not talk about it…  because i haven’t bought myself a test pack. I’ll think of it later. *Huhuhuhu… Pregnancy, Birth, Baby… gosh…!*

Doh. I miss my best friends. I know it’s been a long time since i met them! I miss those times, talking over night about anything, having some coffee, and laugh.
When was the last time you laugh on something till you piss ur pants? Hell… That’s been a very long… long… long… time ago. Geez… that’s pathetic! I can smile widely, but i can’t have a good relieving laugh! I guess i really need help on this one. Is it me, or does it happen to everybody?
Owh… i have this theory,

“By the age of 13, your body hormones will increase 300% than it was before. Untill, you got yourself a job , deadlines and payday; a marriage, spouse and kids. Your hormones decrease 150%, and the one increasing is tense, 500%!. In the age of 40, that tenses stuck sumwhere between you. But your body hormones get u into trouble because it increases 200% than it was before. The only thing to do is enjoy your life, get rid of those tense and just f*ck with life!”

Hahaha… such called theory! Still, you’ll get to it someday. Unless if you’re jobless (having a job means you’re making your own money, not working at some company or so), unmarried, have no gf or bf to screw with, don’t like sex / ciggarettes / alcohol / drugs / weeds, have no hobbies, don’t like music, have no tattoos, and you’re scared to take any chances in life, you’d better make sure your grave is ready!

*lol*

That’s all for today, mates!

Artwork by : bigskystudio

~ by vla on August 26, 2008. Tagged: life, pregnant